Anything But That Lord!

I am not an expert, just someone who is learning how to follow a mysterious God.  Here are some thoughts:

If you haven't yet grasped that truth that God moves mountains with your small faith, I can tell you, I have seen it with my own eyes.  The step we miss in that verse is the leaping part.  Without the faith you can't move mountains, but without the leap, you won't need faith.  Some of us are wondering why we don't see the power that scripture talks about over and over in our lives.  But ask yourself this, "Why would God give his power away if it wasn't going to be needed or even used?"

Doesn't it say, his strength is made perfect in our weakness?  For so long, I fought to never be in a situation that made me have to feel weak, you know, where I might have to be rejected or alone or vulnerable or God forbid, foolish.  It took so much energy, and it availed to nothing (from a kingdom perspective).  When we made the leap to become missionaries last year, the theme of our lives became weakness.  Yet never before in my life have I seen mountains move that I never thought possible.  If something miraculous happens through you or around you, and you can't possibly boast about it because of your weakness, then you have just witnessed the glory of God that Christians talk about.  Now you've got something to praise Him about, something to throw up your hands over.  And this is the kind of praise and worship He really enjoys.

In my weakness, I have cried out to God for help and longed for him to come close to me.  This is worth far more than anything I could do for him or any sacrifice I could give.  Weakness has a way of turning our hearts away from other things that steal our attention and affection, and making us sit like children before him, yearning for his love to shine on us.  I don't think God likes to see me suffer, (He delivers me all the time from it.) but I do think he is winning me over at whatever the cost.  He has a lot of territory to cover in me until I trust him fully.  Just when I think I do, He shows me a new part that he wants to conquer.

I figure this, his job is to be patient with me and mine is to lay down and let him work.  He's just really good at his job and I'm just not always that good at mine.  There came a point in my life, sometime around the time I went through Sozo healing, that I realized what disciple meant.  You are a disciple when you stop saying to God, "Anything but that Lord!"  He is the potter, right?  The potter can fashion you anyway he wants!  I would love to see more of my fellow Christians worry less about being weak, and desire more for opportunities to join God in what he is up to.  The story of a disciple's life is this...it's not a matter of whether we will experience weakness, it's a matter of what we will do with that weakness.  In Galations 4:4-6, it says that Jesus came to redeem us from the law so we could "receive full rights of sons".  Now that we are sons, we get rights and our inheritance.  I might not get much inheritance on this earth, unless I have a rich aunt who has no other living relatives.  But here is my spiritual inheritance... it's the "Spirit of his Son into (my) heart, the Spirit who calls out, "Abba, Father".  Whenever I feel overwhelmed or crushed, I grab hold of my right.  I cry out "Daddy!"  He always comes and never fails.

So if you are struggling with believing that the words of the Bible are real, ask yourself this, "Am I avoiding difficulty and situations which make me feel weak?  Do you want others to see you as strong and capable?"  Because, if you are, you will not find God's power and strength there.  You will not see the glory everyone else is talking about.  Try a little weakness in your life.  And while you are there, call out the name above all names "Abba, Daddy!"  This is where all the good stuff is, I promise!